"For, All men are like grass, and all their glory is like the flowers of the field; the grass withers and the flowers fall, but the word of the Lord stands forever." 1 Peter 1:24-25 (NIV 84)
My grandmother would have been 92 today. I had to text my mother this morning to ask how long it had been since she passed away. I have no idea why I couldn't remember the year. I could remember the date-it was three days after her birthday. I was taken aback when my mom told me it had been five years.
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| Margaret Lee Thompson Brown |
Five years since we had discussed a new book. Five years since she had prayed for me. Five years since we talked about something we had read in the Bible. Five years since I had called her just because I could. Even if I didn't really have anything to say. Maybe I just wanted to hear her say "I love you" when we hung up.
Actually, it probably has been more than five years because she was so sick at the end that we had not be able to visit like we had all my life. Once she entered the nursing home, it really wasn't ever the same. I think that is why I didn't cry too much when she finally passed away. She was finally at peace.
Death had come as a blessing not as a thief.
Knowing that I would see her again, knowing she was with her Savior, knowing that because of her faith in Jesus I was not saying goodbye forever...it makes all the difference. I don't grieve without hope.
I miss her. When I read a book by our favorite author, I want so badly to call her and discuss every glorious detail with her. When the world is frustrating me, I want to hear her reassure me that this is not my home. To remind me of the God I call mine, and that He has not forgotten His promises. I would love to call her and discuss all the recipes on Pinterest-oh, how we could talk about cooking and food and recipes.
But then I open a book she gave me, and she is there in the pages. Conversations we had come flooding back as I reacquaint myself with the stories of the lives spelled out in words. When I look through her worn and stained cookbooks and begin compiling the ingredients for a favorite recipe, she is there telling me to keep my fingers out of the dough. Though not really meaning it.
When I open her Bible and see the verses underlined, the names and dates written in the margins, and the pages worn and wrinkled by her fingers, she is there with me. Her faith in these words, not the words of man, but of God Himself, are the foundation of my faith. The faith that she seeded and watered for 33 years of my life.
Like grass, like flowers, her life faded but the words that she lived by, those remain. Forever. Like her, my life will fade away someday. But I hope and pray that what I leave behind, maybe to a granddaughter if I am so blessed, is a faith that ripples through generations to come. A faith built firmly on the foundation of God's word.
Her simple words, marks and reminders in her Bible let me know that she worked at her faith. The pages are dirty and stained. The leather so supple from being held in her hands over the years that it melds to my hands. She worked at it every day and so must I. As I grow in my knowledge of God, my faith will grow deeper. Like a tree planted by water that bears fruit in its seasons. (Psalm 1) I want my faith to bear fruit. Now and in the years to come.
I have accumulated four Bibles that I use on a regular basis. One I received at my high school graduation, one I purchased for myself once I was married, one I bought in college and used on my three year-long journeys through the Bible, and the last one is the one that goes to church with me-it is smaller, not "Bible-thumper" size. But they all have notes, and underlining, and memories tucked in the pages. Each one tells the journey of my faith a little bit differently, but the story is the same.
The story of a faith built on a foundation that never changes. The words I base my life on are the words of the Lord and they stand forever. These words inspire me, confound me, convict me, encourage me, comfort me, bind me, remind me, challenge me, and save me. The words of my God...define me.
But more than anything, the words of my Savior give me hope. Death has lost its sting. It no longer has the victory. I know that when this life passes away I get to spend eternity with those that have believed and have gone before me. This knowledge doesn't erase grief when those we love go before us, but it redefines the grief. We grieve the loss of their company and presence, but we grieve with hope. Hope born from faith in a God that conquered death and keeps every promise He ever made.
But this hope also instills an urgency within me. There are those that don't have this hope. That don't know the promises contained within His words. How does the world cope without God? How does it grieve without Christ? Without hope?
I pray that somehow my life on this earth is used for His glory. I pray that I am able to plant seeds that will be grown by the Holy Spirit in my sons and in those whose lives I somehow touch each day. I pray I speak with gentleness and respect of this hope that I possess. I pray that a desire is born in those who crave hope, a desire for the words of God Almighty.
Words that stand forever.